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..sometimes you find beauty in the most unusual places..like in a hospital full of sick people..i was posted at the paediatric free ward..where tiny kids hardly the size of your palm are fighting to stay alive in incubators..strange how those tiny human beings even have the energy to breathe..and on one of those rare occasions i actually attended my clinicals..i saw this lil boy with a broken elbow..he had this yellow monkey hanging from his bed..his mother was lying next to him on the bed..listenin to him,watching him..weave story after another(with actions)..both of them oblivious to the chaos and all the sick people around them.the fact that she was lying there just watching him..may not completely understand what he is saying..but is at complete bliss just watching him…she made it a point to bring his favourite stuffed yellow monkey along..how anything else wouldnt give her the satisfaction of just sitting there and watching her son.its amazing how simple gestures give more meaning to life..you always wana do a lot of things in life..evryone has big plans for life..evryone wants to have been there..done that..but just exactly how much do we continue to dream and remember and cherish in the future??i have big plans too..i want to travel the world..become an obstetrician..because nothing else may give me satisfaction like bringing a child in to this world..jus being there when it happens..being a part of the process..being the facilitator..coz i know theres nuthing like watchn a symbol of your love becoming the person you have never been..wholly made of omitting your faults n slips in life..then again..i wna live on an island..nothing like living in a place surrounded by water..stretches n stretches of blue and green..u feel like u hav lost connection with the rest of the world..then..i wna live in france..own a vineyard..make wine..i wna visit the dead sea and actually see for myself if the clay or the sand does really work wonders for the skin?!?i want to adopt a child..i wna b dt person evry1 is immensely proud of..i want to be that independant woman..who does nt need any1 to make her life perfect..but then again..u wna know that one person who can truly understand you..you see how “abstract” thoughts can get?i wna be evrythng that inspires me..but how much of it will happen??wanting it and living it are two different things..for all i know not even 1% of all that i want is possible,.but i stick to my grounds and stay as optimistic as ever..coz i want all of this..good enough if even half of it happens..or mayb i ll hav bigger dreams in the days 2 come..who knows..i ve learnt no1s life is perfect as it may seem on the outside..evry1 has there flaws and dents..evry1 has dt one dark secret no1 else would know of..and how many people you actually know your entire life..may not have fallen below your expectations..for me atleast..the bigger things do not matter..its the smallest of small things that make a difference..i dont think half the people who i am actually very fond of..even know that i am actually fond of them..evry1 u know r special to u in a different way..evry1 has touched ur life in a different way..all dt most of us do is complain about what v dnt hav or smtn v hav dt v dont wnt..nevr thinkin of the lil things in life..or the people in our lives..making all the difference there is..bringin all the possible joy in larger quantities out of minute details..simply sittin and watchin the rain..the smell of mud after it rains..watching a plant grow..jus standin in the shower..hearin nothing but the water splattering all over you..sometimes a movie dt u watched has effect on you for the rest of the day..or a song that makes you go back and think..some songs kinda connect with you on some level..and you know some else is thinking like u do..lil things that continue make it all d more worthwhile…but here we are competing on whose life sucks more~~